Raw Food – Day 12: To fast or not to fast?
So at the moment I am struggling with the next move. I have a niggling fear at the back of my mind that things are getting worse fast enough to warrant extreme action. That means maybe fasting again. When I try and meditate on what I think is working best I keep coming back to juice fasting. But it is hard to justify going back on a third juice fast simply based on my intuition, especially when I have so many identifiable issues around food to cloud my judgement.
So a compromise. I have started monitoring the tumor sizes on my leg. I will keep doing so until Tuesday which is meant to be the last day of my raw food trial. Instead of introducing cooked food I will keep going on the raw food until I can see a pattern with either growth or no growth of the tumor masses. If there is growth I will drop down into a juice fast and see if that changes anything. If there is no growth I will continue as is.
Totals for the day:
Calories: 2798 kcal
Calories from fat:56%
Stats for the day:
Morning weight: 65.5kg
Morning pH: Urine 6.7
Evening temperature: 35.3
Evening pulse: 70
Evening pH: Urine 6.5
Wow. An interesting day. It was my sisters birthday so we had a bit of a dinner after she got back from a diving trip. They all had Burmese takeaway and I was feeling a bit down due to my leg pain and the monotony of this whole process (blog on plans to jazz things up coming soon). When dessert came out I snapped a little. Not much but I just kept on snacking on almonds. This is where a good proportion of the extra calories for today came from. Around 100g of almonds is over 600 calories. As far as falling off the wagon goes this is probably the best I could hope for but it must be noted that I am still finding myself drawn to food when I feel down, which is not good. I can’t seem to find a working alternative although I am developing a few plans. I am also having more trouble coping with other people eating in front of me. In the past this has never been much of a problem. The longer I go without progress however the harder it is to justify continuing on this strict lifestyle and so the harder it becomes to watch other people eat food that I would love to eat. Amelia was very nice and noticed my distress and tried to comfort me on the way home by saying how rubbish she felt after the meal. It is good to see her digestive system letting her know what it can and can’t handle, although I know better than most people that this is not always enough 😛
pH might have been affected by the almonds, I’m not sure. Whatever made the pH go down to 6.5 in the evening is not good. It is possible its the cottage cheese. It is also possible that it was my mood.
Not good I have to admit. Started the day off alright then got worse throughout the day. Then sleeping my leg pain came back again and I had to resort to pain killers which I do not like doing. The pain killers also didn’t work all that well which is pretty discouraging. All in all a day I could quite happily have slept through.