Just a quick update as I can not face writing more. I am struggling atm. The MP often results in a thing called immunopathology. This is basically symptoms caused by killing lots of bacteria. Because I have really pushed the MP my ipath is really bad. I feel ill, I feel depressed and I am getting a fair bit of pain. I guess there is comfort in the fact that it is doing something but it is hard to cope sometimes. At least with the chemo I really believed (in the end wrongly) that it would work. Now I slog away each day watching things get worse wondering if it’s all for nothing. Sometimes it is very hard to know what to do.