Just a quick update as I can not face writing more. I am struggling atm. The MP often results in a thing called immunopathology. This is basically symptoms caused by killing lots of bacteria. Because I have really pushed the MP my ipath is really bad. I feel ill, I feel depressed and I am getting a fair bit of pain. I guess there is comfort in the fact that it is doing something but it is hard to cope sometimes. At least with the chemo I really believed (in the end wrongly) that it would work. Now I slog away each day watching things get worse wondering if it’s all for nothing. Sometimes it is very hard to know what to do.
Hi Jerome, I’m a friend of Cristi’s and Sabdha’s from way back. Sending warm hugs in your direction – you are a trouper. Rally soon! Love, Alison (Reid)
/thanks for your kind words Alison. The hugs are greatly appreciated.
My dear Jerome, I can’t let one more of your blogs go by without letting you know that I have been reading everything you have written. I think you are so very courageous to be writing to us all. So many family members and friends and acquaintances are reading your blog and feeling with and for you. I marvel at the power of your writing, at your ability to communicate such deep emotions, at your amazing poetic sense and your capacity for subtle humour. Don’t lose that Jerome even though things are really hard at the moment. We are all thinking of you!
Lots of love from your aunt Betty
Thanks Betty, I always appreciate comments but understand that it is often hard to think of something to say, Thank you for your kind words.
Thanks Natalie 🙂