Monthly Archives: July 2011

Climbing

Posted on July 31, 2011 by

It hurts. It physically hurts. I watch a climbing video, something that used to give me so much pleasure, and it just hurts. Something I love so much has been taken from me. I will almost certainly never climb again. … Continue reading →

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EP

Posted on July 29, 2011 by

I run my hand down the soft, malleable flesh of my left thigh. Subtly trying to move some of the fluid build up past the tumours in my lymph system. Stroke after stroke, nothing really being achieved but it’s either … Continue reading →

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A quick note on comments

Posted on July 29, 2011 by

I feel I should quickly address an issue that I have felt bad about for a while. The issue of my responding to comments. Firstly, I love to get comments, whatever they are about. I love knowing that there are … Continue reading →

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toasted cheese

Posted on July 29, 2011 by

Just had a toasted cheese sandwich.  AMAZING.  However I don’t think I will be having them too often as it is not sitting well 😛  I guess in the end there is a reason a lot of people have problems with … Continue reading →

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Food

Posted on July 27, 2011 by

I think the time has come to ease my diet a bit. Not too much. I still think it is important. But at the same time a love of life is very important too. I have lost so many things … Continue reading →

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Radiation

Posted on July 27, 2011 by

So I am going in for radiation planning this morning.  I know that I need to do something to get stuff under control but I could no be less keen to go.  The experience will be uncomfortable, unpersonable and naked … Continue reading →

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EP, so many EP’s

Posted on July 25, 2011 by

I am so angry I could scream. I am so desprate I could cry. I am so depressed I could curl up in a ball and die. I do not know what has happened.  Where a week ago I had … Continue reading →

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EP

Posted on July 22, 2011 by

I feel I have so much to offer. What the fuck is the point of all this. I see children on tv and I break down. I am happy less and less. I dont know what to do, I have … Continue reading →

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EP – Cancer

Posted on July 21, 2011 by

Cancer, you have taken much from me. In return you have given me myself as I could never have seen without you. For myself I can stand to forgive you. For all you are punishing to show me the truth … Continue reading →

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AAVNLIW

Posted on July 18, 2011 by

Some days I am king of the world. Nothing can stop me. My body is a temple and nothing can desecrate its grounds. Then the very next day I will hear the familiar rattling sound of death, creeping ever closer … Continue reading →

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