My pain levels have gone though the roof. I wake up and have a headache caused by all the pain killers from the previous day. I drag myself out of bed on one and a half legs. The constipation is getting worse (pain killers) and this makes thing doubly uncomfortable. My leg hurts… a lot. It gets worse throughout the day. By the evening I give in and take pain killers. But they no longer work well and I usually end up taking around 7 or 8. That is on top of the slow release pills. I get a few hours of relief before I try and sleep where the fact that the pills are opioids comes to the fore and my mind runs in circles. By 2 in the morning the pills wear off and my mind quietens. Of course then the pain is back so I still can’t sleep. Eventualy I slumber for a few hours just to start the while thing again. I am two days into the radiation and chemo and it is already horrible. I have 23 days to go. It is not going to be fun.
I do get a few moments of satisfaction when I look at the shrinking tumours. That is pleasant.