My pain levels have gone though the roof. I wake up and have a headache caused by all the pain killers  from the previous day. I drag myself out of bed on one and a half legs. The constipation is getting worse (pain killers) and this makes thing doubly uncomfortable. My leg hurts… a lot. It gets worse throughout the day. By the evening I give in and take pain killers. But they no longer work well and I usually end up taking around 7 or 8. That is on top of the slow release pills. I get a few hours of relief before I try and sleep where the fact that the pills are opioids comes to the fore and my mind runs in circles. By 2 in the morning the pills wear off and my mind quietens. Of course then the pain is back so I still can’t sleep. Eventualy I slumber for a few hours just to start the while thing again. I am two days into the radiation and chemo and it is already horrible. I have 23 days to go. It is not going to be fun.
I do get a few moments of satisfaction when I look at the shrinking tumours. That is pleasant.

About jeromepink

I am slightly taller than average, have brown hair, enjoy rock climbing, and got told I would be dead within 5 years in 2010. I have chosen to disregard this :P
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4 Responses to Update

  1. Thanks for keeping us up to date Jerome. I’m so sorry you are suffering so much pain, but am glad there’s some payoff. Here’s to ya!

  2. Hannah says:

    I was just thinking of you today, Jerome, and crossing all my digits for some relief for you. Big, big hugs. Here’s to more rest during those often-horrid night-time hours! xoxo

  3. Ro says:

    Glad the treatment is providing a response, I can’t imagine how difficult this is to you, but you have tremendous will and strength.

  4. Fuck you, shrinking tumours!!!

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