I am very tired. I sleep about 12 hours a day but I am still tired. My pain is down, then it is up again. I an struggling to get a grip on the situation. Things look good, but I am very tired.
I am slightly taller than average, have brown hair, enjoy rock climbing, and got told I would be dead within 5 years in 2010. I have chosen to disregard this :P
I am glad to hear there is some relief to your pain throughout the day. A question for you, which I ponder myself given that I am wide awake at 5am from too much coffee during the day. Is it better to be overly tired, despite long periods of sleep or unable to sleep because your body has too much energy, irrespective of whether that energy is naturally or artificially induced? My intuition is that this is entirely dependent on the context. If being awake means you are able to be productive, for instance writing a thesis, rather than getting aggravated by one’s own inability to fall asleep, then not being able to sleep seems not such a bad thing. But if the circumstance is one in which being awake is not productive and symptomatic of the experience of pain, then my preference would be to able to sleep. Also, I would have thought that if a person were unable to sleep at night then there is a strong likelihood that they would be extremely tired throughout the day. Forgive me for the odd musing, but when I am jacked up on coffee at 5am my mind can operate in odd ways. On the plus side having a couple of strong cups of coffee yesterday morning resulted in one of the most productive days of writing in a long time.
Also, I really like the fact that despite your tiredness there are a number of positives in your message. It is uplifting.
Lifestyle Over Cancer 
I am glad to hear there is some relief to your pain throughout the day. A question for you, which I ponder myself given that I am wide awake at 5am from too much coffee during the day. Is it better to be overly tired, despite long periods of sleep or unable to sleep because your body has too much energy, irrespective of whether that energy is naturally or artificially induced? My intuition is that this is entirely dependent on the context. If being awake means you are able to be productive, for instance writing a thesis, rather than getting aggravated by one’s own inability to fall asleep, then not being able to sleep seems not such a bad thing. But if the circumstance is one in which being awake is not productive and symptomatic of the experience of pain, then my preference would be to able to sleep. Also, I would have thought that if a person were unable to sleep at night then there is a strong likelihood that they would be extremely tired throughout the day. Forgive me for the odd musing, but when I am jacked up on coffee at 5am my mind can operate in odd ways. On the plus side having a couple of strong cups of coffee yesterday morning resulted in one of the most productive days of writing in a long time.
Also, I really like the fact that despite your tiredness there are a number of positives in your message. It is uplifting.
Hey Jerome,
Glad there’s some light that you’re experiencing. Keep pushing through it, must be very intense.
All the best,
Ro
Then sleep a little more … it’s a great restorative, for mind and body. x
Just a few days of chemo/radio to go? Hang in there lovely cousin xoxoox