Despair

It comes from nowhere. I feel good all day.  Things are looking good.  Not great but not to bad either.   I see signs that the MP is working.  Then suddenly one thing goes wrong.  It could be noticing some sights of disease, or some internal sensation that indicates something not right or anything along those lines.  Then suddenly I am beaten, I sit down in despair.  How do you fight when in the end the enemy is in your own mind.  The energy needed to be strong drains out of me.  It takes just seconds to go from strong and confident to down and out.  I do not know where this leads and strangely I don’t know which situation I am happiest in.  I do not even know if that is a bad thing.  I am tired.  I am going to bed.

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About jeromepink

I am slightly taller than average, have brown hair, enjoy rock climbing, and got told I would be dead within 5 years in 2010. I have chosen to disregard this :P
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One Response to Despair

  1. And I hope you get (got) a good sleep … I wish we knew where those feelings that change upend one’s mood in a minute come from. If you ever work it out you could make a million I reckon. Hand in there!

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