I feel that sometimes I only write when I am feeling particularly down and in need of a release. As a result I probably give the impression that I am angry or depressed most of the time. In the interests of fair and balanced coverage of this journey I am taking I should say that this is not the case.
Today I was still suffering from the problems I came across yesterday. My feelings about my future are unchanged but my emotions have improved. I am still sad but I am less depressed. I guess this is probably the best I can hope for, and indeed sadness is not something I run from.
Life is hard, I will probably die soon, but I do not spend my life being depressed (although I do spend some time being so.)
I watch political coverage, I look at international conflict. I look at the struggle that people engage in and I see its futility. Step back, look at yourselves. Happiness is not to be found in getting your political idiolgy into law, it is not in running a successful business although these things are important parts of life. Happiness is inside you and nowhere else. Life is precious and short, get to know yourself as well as you can as in the end you are the only person you will ever be. Running away in the form of alcohol, drugs, overwork, anger will only lead to more confusion. You are you, and that is beautiful.
Random thought, but hey, what is this blog for but to give me a soapbox from which to feel I am doing good.
On a positive note, went for a lap around the block for the first time in a few weeks and made it around in about 14 minutes.
Lifestyle Over Cancer 
Good for you Jerome, on all counts. BTW, one of the reasons we write is for catharsis — it’s a great way to get things off your chest, so no need to apologise. Write what you feel —
Nice to hear that you still have ups and not just downs…not like I’ll worry less though! 🙂
Congrats on your 14 minutes!
Hi Jerome Still here reading your blogs most days. Sorry about the lack of comments but your amazing writing outdoes anything I could say in response. It has occurred to me though that you might be interested in a some videos Peter has on archaeological sites and especially one on the work of a University of Sydney team that is using GPS and aerial photography to map the ancient settlement of Angkor Wat. Also we have stacks of books here on a myriad of topics so if there is anything you might want to read just mention it to Barbara. Enjoy the coast.
Of course they are not videos. I mean CDs. I know, videos belong in the last century.