Monthly Archives: October 2011

Climbing

Climbing continues to make me sad.  It represents so much that I don’t want to leave behind.  Love of nature, friends, self and fancy equipment that I can spend lots of time researching 😛 I joke but I do get … Continue reading

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Love

Stayed up late talking to Amelia about life the universe and everything.  It made me so happy.  The knowledge that the people I love will live on in a beautiful world is a great comfort to me.  I cried much, … Continue reading

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One day

I would give it all away for one day on my old life. I can see this life slipping away and I don’t want what is left. What is left is nothing but decline and pain. I hate this more … Continue reading

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Crying

I am crying a lot again. It would be rare to go 6 hours without breaking down. My breathing has for the first time become truly difficult. I have an appointment at peter mac next week. I always liked the … Continue reading

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Beauty

The world is so beautiful I can not bear it. I do not wish to die and yet it seems I will. The world is so wonderful I cry. I would give almost anything to leave this life and travel … Continue reading

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Sleep

I jerk awake and instantly regret it.  I have left a land of infinite possibilities for one of slow, committed drudgery.  Life has degraded of late.  I am no longer comfortable much of the time.  My leg is once again sore.  I have tumours everywhere.  My breathing … Continue reading

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Knife edge

I sit here, drinking my green juice in the afternoon of my fast day on a knife edge. I stand on a razor thin edge looking at two radically different valleys. In one, I stop my fast and head up … Continue reading

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