Its amazing what brings it all home.  I just opened the door and the day is cool and fresh.  I thought of all the days like this that I have gone climbing with good friends and I got really sad.  So many good memories that I would not do away with for anything, but they really bring it crashing home.  I will almost certainly never go on one of those trips again.  And I used to love them so much.  It is sad, that is for sure.

I could go on one again I guess.  But it would not be the same.  I couldn’t climb, I would get uncomfortable quickly, it would just make me realise even more painfully what I have been reduced to.  People say, “you can still go”, but I really can’t.  It would just make me feel worse and exhaust me.  The sad truth of it is that that part of my life is almost certainly over.

It is a pity that my first post in a while is so negative.  I have actually had some good moments recently.  But I guess sadness compels me to write so here it is.

About jeromepink

I am slightly taller than average, have brown hair, enjoy rock climbing, and got told I would be dead within 5 years in 2010. I have chosen to disregard this :P
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3 Responses to Reality

  1. Sadness often does Jerome … I wrote the most (back in the days when we wrote diaries rather than blogs) in my saddest time. But that’s OK, that’s one of the values of writing – getting it out. I’m glad you’ve had some good moments too … and I’m glad to see a post.

  2. Rohan says:

    Hey Jerome,

    Well atleast you’ve been good recently. Hope that there’s some positives at the moment, apart from the sadness with the climbing

  3. Gabrielle Pink says:

    Jerome, it is great to see you back to blogging. Now I don’t have to log on 10 times a day looking! I know you’re feeling sad at all you’ve lost, I feel sad too for you but I hope when my health and mobility is affected, I can be as open and honest as you have been. Gay

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