Monthly Archives: December 2011

Ah climbing, you are the perfect demo of loss.  You are all that has happened to me, you represent all my pain and joy. I loved you, I really did.  It is strange to look back and think of loving … Continue reading →

I am a person of many flaws.  Pride is one of the main ones, it must be admitted.  I struggle to see people that I know want to see me because I can not bear to have them see me … Continue reading →

I sit in the hospital with oxygen flowing through a small plastic tube into my nose. All of a sudden people have caught onto the fact that I can not breath. Two weeks ago they saw oxygen levels at around … Continue reading →

Over the last four days my breathing has got so much worse I almost can’t believe it. The last two nights after I have gone upstairs I have had to sit on my bed rasping away desperate to try and … Continue reading →

So this is a bit of a change for my blog however this is something I have been thinking a lot about lately and so I decided I would but a quick blog post together on it and see what … Continue reading →

I can’t cry. I get close all the time but just as it starts I stop being able to breath, panic, and stop. How have things deteriorate so quickly. Three weeks ago I was ready to fight. Now I just … Continue reading →

Ever time I think about it I get so angry. At some point someone said, 135-145 is the range for sodium, presumably because it makes a nice looking set of numbers. Now because of this arbitrary cut off I have … Continue reading →

How I have missed you. I suspect we are about to become best friends.

Didn’t get into the trial. Sodium levels where one point too low. They don’t make exceptions. I don’t want anything anymore. I don’t want comments, I don’t want sympathy. I don’t want life if it is to be like this. … Continue reading →

I wish I could give my life for a worthy cause. Exploring space, or fighting the sex slave trade. It feels so worthless, like I’m standing outside a soy factory screaming to the heavens “there is slightly too much salt … Continue reading →