Didn’t get into the trial. Sodium levels where one point too low. They don’t make exceptions. I don’t want anything anymore. I don’t want comments, I don’t want sympathy. I don’t want life if it is to be like this. I am done with this. I just want to be at peace. When did this happen, I can’t quite remember. When did it all go so wrong. My breathing is getting worse, my leg barely functions. I seem to be much more alive than I should be, I am not sure what I have done for this. I certainly won’t keep doing it for much longer. I am tired. Tired of the fighting and losing. Tired of what someone seems to think is an amazing joke. Tired even if this blog.

I will write again.