It hurts. It physically hurts. I watch a climbing video, something that used to give me so much pleasure, and it just hurts. Something I love so much has been taken from me. I will almost certainly never climb again. It hurts so much I want to scream. I want to tell the universe to go fuck itself. I started climbing in 2005. I got maybe 3 years before I got sick. Its not enough. I wanted a lifetime to explore this new love.
Fuck you universe.
I bet it hurts Jerome. Life isn’t fair … and no platitudes help really so I won’t give any. Take care. x
Thought of you today when I was hiking at Rattlesnake Point. I reached a lookout point and when I looked down I saw two rappelling hooks embedded in the rock. I thought to myself, “This rock would be way too easy for Jerome.”