Breathing has got worse fast. Five days ago it was on my mind but quite easy. Now I am wheezing and struggling to get enough air. Also feel like my anus is on fire, hence the 430 blog post. Having problems with bowel movements fluctuating between extremes (it’s details like this which I know make you keep coming back for more dear reader, I know what you like :P). Can’t sleep because of pain and breathing and sleep is needed to improve both. Plus I am keeping Amelia up. I could stop shaking her but my pillow isn’t going to fluff itself. Have some other developments to update on. Probably going on a trial, assuming I am fit enough in a week which is not guaranteed given how I feel right now. Melbourne was fine but didn’t sleep well which has made breathing worse. Seeing Jess and Caz was amazing, caught up with Jake but didn’t have the energy to do much else. Oncologist is still good but not perfect. Hasn’t looked into a trial she said she would look into and at one point got my type of cancer wrong. Not sure if this mistake was a case of meaning the right one while saying the wrong one. If it’s not then I think it is a bit worrying. I have never found an oncologist who I really trust or feel is looking out for me.
Anyway got to sleep. No time to proof read, sorry about poor english.