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It comes from nowhere. I feel good all day.  Things are looking good.  Not great but not to bad either.   I see signs that the MP is working.  Then suddenly one thing goes wrong.  It could be noticing some … Continue reading →

I wake, panicked, from sleep I didn’t see sneaking up on me.  I am hot, my sweaty body clings to my childhood blanket, twisting me deeper than my tested patience can cope with.  A short struggle leaves me decisively the … Continue reading →

Hope Hope is very powerful.  It exists gently, brightly in the distance.  I can not reach it physically, nor if I am honest can I see it with my eyes open.  I can only feel it with my eyes shut. … Continue reading →

Sorry for the lack of blog posts recently.  It has sadly been the result of a couple of factors beyond my control. The first is that I am very very tired from the radiation.  I get up in the mornings … Continue reading →

Thank you to all who have read and commented on posts. I have read and loved every one. If you havn’t commended no problem. Thank you always for reading. I write for myself but it is comforting to know that … Continue reading →

Watching climbing videos makes me furious. Indescribably angry. I hate all the people in the video. Fuck them for being healthy and doing what I want to do. I want to kidnap them and make them come and see one … Continue reading →

i want to climb i want to climb i want to climb i want to climb i want to climb i want to climb fuck i want to climb i want to climb fuckfuck i want to climb i want … Continue reading →

There is so much beauty in the world. I could not cry enough in 10 lifetimes to express it. I wish I had skills with words our pictures or sounds to try and capture it before I go. Instead I … Continue reading →

It hurts. It physically hurts. I watch a climbing video, something that used to give me so much pleasure, and it just hurts. Something I love so much has been taken from me. I will almost certainly never climb again. … Continue reading →

I run my hand down the soft, malleable flesh of my left thigh. Subtly trying to move some of the fluid build up past the tumours in my lymph system. Stroke after stroke, nothing really being achieved but it’s either … Continue reading →