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I feel I should quickly address an issue that I have felt bad about for a while. The issue of my responding to comments. Firstly, I love to get comments, whatever they are about. I love knowing that there are … Continue reading →

So I am going in for radiation planning this morning.  I know that I need to do something to get stuff under control but I could no be less keen to go.  The experience will be uncomfortable, unpersonable and naked … Continue reading →

I am so angry I could scream. I am so desprate I could cry. I am so depressed I could curl up in a ball and die. I do not know what has happened.  Where a week ago I had … Continue reading →

So It has been two weeks now on the MP.  I will just do a quick list of summeries as I am heading out (shocking I know :P) Got my pre MP vit D test results back.  D25 came in … Continue reading →

Life Is Complicated It is one of the great paradox’s that something that gives so much pleasure can at the same time cause so much pain. This afternoon my cousin Cristi and her partner and children stopped by our new … Continue reading →

If I could be granted one wish as they come for me it would be for an afternoon. Just one afternoon, alone in a field a wheat. A comfortable chair, a gentle breeze.  Nothing but my own thoughts.  It would … Continue reading →

Pete and I chop wood. Splinters of frustration rain, warm comfort in the crisp night air. Each man gets something different. For me it is a subtle fuck you to the degradation of my body. For pete I can not … Continue reading →

I lie here, a scared little boy in a broken body. My mind dances from thought to thought, never settling but to sleep. Would it be so bad to rest? I know not the answer. I would like to lead … Continue reading →

I sail on a boat that is very, precious to me. It is a boat that I built myself.  Often I did not bring much presence our thought to the building; Often I just trusted that it would float despite … Continue reading →

Moments of pure beauty abound.  They exist nowhere but my mind and are seen only by me.  Fleeting as they are beautiful and precious as any victory or achievement I earned in my past life.  I feel like learning haiku; … Continue reading →